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Write an Incentive Post to Kick-start Your Writing Goals

Black Hole

Where did the time go?

Sometimes I need little extra push to get myself pointed in the right direction. There are countless methods out there that proclaim to cure a writer of their creative blocks, or motivate even the most lethargic pencil pusher.

Nostrums! Snake Oil! Autism-causing vaccinations! OK, maybe not that last one.

As a slacker fueled by distractions, I have attempted just about every method out there to escape the event horizon of the anti-productivity black hole. Yet, even my ever-increasing mass does not seem to attract enough accountability to keep me from ignoring the goal all together and justifying my inaction.

Something a little more drastic must be done.

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Top Reasons I Haven’t Blogged Lately (Reasoning vs. Reality)

Procrastination

Later is the New 'Now'

It has been a long time since my last post, and I thought I would offer some excuses reasons I have not updated Worthless Genius in a while.

So, hit the jump if you would like to read my pathetic attempt to justify my absence.

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Creativity Blockage

I haven’t made much time recently to sit down and write. Between summer class AppIndie 2.0 work and family stuff, I haven’t exactly been a maven of productivity.

Just as I haven’t been writing any blog posts (the last one was when?), I haven’t been working much on my novels, or any of the other creative pursuits that I’ve come to enjoy. Though I make an effort to show up for my writing time, but nothing seems to come out when I sit down.

Writer’s block is probably nothing to stress about, but just the same, it feels me with that bit of anxiety that seems to permeate through the rest of my life.

While some of my friends and colleagues seem to be moving forward with their work and creative pursuits, I seem to be just stuck in the mud.
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Podcast Episode #1 – Windows 7 Beta 1 Review

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Windows 7 Beta 1 Review

I’ve never done any kind of audio recording or editing that would be publicly heard, so bear with me on this first episode of the podcast.

I’d like to take the podcast and make it a piece of audio every week that discusses some topic that has come up for me in my every day life as a geek. I haven’t planned a roadmap for this, so I’m not quite sure where it’s going to go, or even if it’s going to go.

I’ve been thinking of doing some sort of podcast for a long time now, mostly inspired by podcasts like The Linux Action Show. I don’t have any kind of fancy equipment, just a gaming headset and a version of Audacity to record my stuff. So expect a non-top-notch show, and if time goes on and things get better, maybe I can learn some new stuff and really advance my place in the audio world.

I am recording this with the onboard soundcard, as I don’t think I have a soundcard laying around that I could use for more serious recording. You might here a bit of high-pitched noise, and that’s most likely to do with the way that onboard soundcards work.

In addition to this audio review, which was recorded just about 24 hours after I installed Windows 7 Beta 1, I plan on doing a new post in about a week with my thoughts after using it in regular situations.

All this being said, I hope you like what I have to say, and I promise I’ll do better next time. Use the widget below to listen to it streaming in your browser:

Or you can download it here: mp3 format


The Challenge of Rewriting

On the fourth day of the New Year’s 30 Day Challenge, I’ve decided to take a look at the first chapter of my novel, Dimenxia, which I wrote 4 years ago. I’ve never had to do a substantial rewrite of a piece of literature before, and I decided to share my ideas to potentially help out other authors going through the process.

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Thoughts

It’s been almost two weeks since I posted the blog about changes that will be happening on this site. While setting a schedule has forced me to write regularly, I feel like my thoughts have been diluted over the past two weeks.

I have had a great series of posts in this initiative, but I don’t feel like each was truly well written, and I didn’t put my energies fully into each, due to the “oh, it’s scheduled, I have to get something out there” mentality.

Being almost seven months clean, I have found that my mind is starting to race again with thoughts of all the things I can, and should, be doing. While blogging has become a passion of mine, I almost have started to feel like a robot when it comes to finding subjects to blog about, and pushing out updates regardless of the quality.

While my GTD system has been working keeping track of what I need to do, I seem to be unable to adapt to the idea that I need to rely on it in order to figure out what I should be doing on a minute-by-minute basis.

This is all compounded by the changes that my body has been going through over the past few months. Not changes in a weird, awkward, sexual way, but changes in mentality and overall health. I have not been losing much weight, even with the best of intentions, mostly due to my impulsive nature that I have not been able to shake.

Also, I have been plagued over the past two weeks with a seriously debilitating headache which leaves me feeling unproductive and downright shitty. These headaches are fairly constant, and seem to happen everyday around the same time, regardless of my activities for the day. Though I do spend a large amount of time in front of a computer, which may cause its own problems, even on days where I don’t see a computer screen I get the same results.

Aside from the physical symptoms, I have also had quite a hard time with the psychological symptoms. I have been increasingly scatter-brained. I often find myself going to one section of my house with an explicit purpose, getting lost in another thought, and finally arriving with no idea of why I changed locations. Now, this could all be because I have been noticing my own habits more and more, but it could also indicate one of many other things. My medication has been increased, and it seems like this has all happened after the increase. This may not have a causal relationship, but the possibility still stands.

So, I’m not going to be following a set schedule as I have over the past two weeks, and will just strive to post something worthwhile that I’ve put my attentions on in an everyday fashion.

Stub Projects and Time Management

If you know me personally, you certainly know that I have some trouble managing my time. The way my brain works makes my attentions turn to certain pursuits over others, sometimes without a conscious thought on my behalf.

With this type of ‘disability’ comes a lot of loose ends, as well as issues involving relationships with customers, family and friends. Though I’m actively attempting to change my habits, things never seem to stick.

The way my passion works is a burst of sudden energy toward one topic, and my attentions can seem infinite and without speed bumps. Without fail, once the passion fades, I’m left with an empty husk where productivity should be, and things get left to rot in the background of my ever-changing mind. Truthfully, my mind is a scary place to live, with thousands upon thousands of connections running from one topic to a seemingly disparate topic of an entirely separate persuasion.

That being said, truly there are projects out there which I have started (quite a few come to mind, *cough* ZTTC *cough*) and are truly just relics of the spaghetti that is my thought process.
[A quick word about the irony of this post. I started writing this on Thursday, August 28th, and only made it to this point.]

So, I’d like to list a few of my projects here, with some brief descriptions so that I can get things in order, and make small strides forward in each of their processes.

  1. DiggNitty – This was a project that never made it anywhere, as using the name of Digg in any new service is against the copyright holder’s rights. DiggNitty was to be started as the “nitty gritty” version of Digg, with more adult-themed sections and stories. I was told very amiably that I could not use the name “Digg” in my site, and I’ve come to terms with the idea that they are just trying to protect their rights. Diggnitty.com expires today, and I am going to let my hold on the domain lapse. If someone out there wants to try their hand with this, be my guest.
  2. Nostrus – Nostrus was to be a blog and content management system for websites. I started this project in 2005, but after seeing how much spam can build up on a homebrew system, and running into enough other issues, it was abandoned. I just use WordPress now, and stop worrying about the underlying code of the site. Nostr.us expires on September 16th, and I’m unsure whether I want to keep it around for a future project, or just release it back to the wild, saving a few dollars a year in the process.
  3. The Third Realm – The Third Realm was to be the home of Jaycen Poole’s artwork and rants. For a while, it ran the Nostrus software. After switching a few different servers, it was sidetracked, and no new content was being produced. Jaycen has expressed the desire for a new blog under a different domain name. Most likely, I will set it up using WordPress, thereby making things a lot easier for everyone.
  4. Radioactive Computers – I guess you could say that this is the granddaddy of all of my failed projects. Radioactive Computers was a company that I started with a coworker in 2004. We did desktop support for individual and business customers, as well as running a hosting business with a dedicated server. We also began running a Half Life 2: Deathmatch server, and created a fully-functional stats system with an online profile and forums. This effort created the Radioactive Clan (rAc) which is still active today.

    After operating for about 2 years, the losses we were taking with the dedicated server were starting to hit home. Both of us had fulltime jobs and growing families to take care of, so things became stagnate, and the business was lost. The forums on the original site are still available in a read-only format.

  5. Benjam.us – This was simply to be a place to post pictures of my son, for our families to see. A set of about 20 pictures were posted, and nothing ever came of it. I still plan on doing something with this domain, but it’s unclear what at this point.
  6. Amjebin – This domain never had a clear project associated with it, but I still own it nonetheless. At one point, it was a wiki for me to keep track of things I was working on, but it became way too cumbersome for its own good.
  7. I’m A Big Fat Loser – Before I joined Weight Watchers, I was trying to figure out a great way to lose weight, and create some sort of fun project along with that goal. Originally, I was going to try to make a wager with the world, and bet that I could lose 50 pounds in some crazy short amount of time, and thereby win some sort of reward. Alright, that’s kind of a weird idea, right?

    Although I have lost 25 pounds with Weight Watchers, I’m still 33 pounds away from my realistic goal weight. I think if I can grab some more time, I might do this blog again, and try to at least chronicle my normal weight loss and keep track of my points and exercise and weight loss-oriented thoughts.

  8. Western Maryland Think Tank – The Western Maryland Think Tank was going to be an invite-only forum for contemplating the large ideas for life, as well as the small things affecting life in this area. It existed for a small time, but eventually faded into dust. I would love to get this started up again, as I’ve recently resumed contact with a few of my intellectual friends.
  9. Cranial Constructs – This is a new recruit to my army of incomplete ideas. Cranial Constructs was to be a repository of some of my best ideas, so that I could put the ideas out into the world. The thought was that because I’ve been getting less and less time to complete things, if I put the ideas out there in an open source type fashion, someone can pick them up and get them done, paying great justice to the concepts, without need for copyright, trademark and patent disputes on my end.It became painfully obvious, while I was trying to put the concepts into words and simple artwork, that each idea needed much more love than I was able to give it at the time. I’m not going to include these projects in this roundup, but maybe I’ll go over them at a later date.

This is pretty much all of the ones that I feel comfortable sharing at this point. But just from memory, I can think of at least 6 or 7 others that have been partially done with great enthusiasm, only to meet the wrong side of a backup folder.

I think I might do a spotlight series of posts, focusing on a new idea in each, and including bits of already completed work in order to try to work through things a bit better. But, as I’ve said earlier in the post, most of the time I can’t be arsed to complete much of anything.